Liddl15

So I haven't been on dA in a loooooong time. It's kinda scary. Or not, really if I think about it fairly, because I started studying music at Berklee and I had to be fair to myself and not focus on art or graphics. >> Not that I've been doing nothing, but comparatively speaking I suppose it might as well be nothing? I don't know. I don't really regret it too much, though, which IS surprising, given how obsessively I used to both do graphics and draw. Now, I seem to just do it very specifically when someone asks me for something. Which is technically neat, because I still remember how to do most of it. I don't think I'm going to be ge

Without discipline, it's so hard to make progress it seems. And I really want to make progress... so why can't I really have discipline? I see myself in Berklee a year from now. I really do. But at the same time I wonder whether I'll really make it because I keep disappointing myself; with my lack of discipline to sit down and work on my theory, with my basic ability to grasp the theory, with my lack of desire to sit and practice for hours sometimes, with the general absence of inspiration.

Much is different from the last time I wrote a journal entry.